(Un)reachable

by Sanela K. July 5, 2021

All the best to my dear Leviticus Fashions boot lovers 💕 I hope you are doing fine today or at least better than me. 😆 I am spending my days finishing some business stuff I don't like, but someone has to do it. And I am also starving on my diet, which I also don't like, but I have to do it. 🤣

I do have to say that I am doing pretty well with the dieting. It has been 1 week since I have been eating waaaaay less than before and also giving my body 16 hours to burn what I ate. Which means for 16 hours I don't eat anything. I have lost 1.8 kg in this week alone. Almost 2 kgs! 😊 And I already noticed that my legs are aaaaaa bit skinnier! 😍 which motivates me to keep going! 😊 Last night I had a dream.... the whole night I was eating chocolate!!! 🙈ONLY IN MY DREAM GUYS!!!! And I had such a bad need to eat cholocate!!! Even I though normally don't really eat such stuff, but that dream was totally crazy. Maybe my body needed a bit more sugar than I am giving it. 😆 Well, this one time was an exception, I ate a small piece of chocolate in the morning. And then a very healthy lunch. 😊

It is okay. I am losing some grams every day and that is awesome! 👌 Well, "only" 10 more kilograms to go! 🤣 Piece of cake... or better not to use the cake methaphor! But at least now I think my goal is possible and reachable, unlike some other things in my life. (Like becoming a billionaire) 🤣🤣🤣

Yesterday I saw the most beautiful house! It's not luxurious or anything. Just a normal house with a great yard and on a great plot of land. 🏡 While looking and admiring what I saw, I was imagining how beautiful it would be to live there with a loved person, having a van and a tent... going onto road trips, making grilled food for friends, enjoying the pure nature of the yard. I would be having a room for exercises or for some other hobbies and of course a special room for all of my Leviticus Fashions boots 😍. I would be living peacefully in that house.... I am just worried that might not happen. 🙈 It's the biggest wish of my life and I am ready to do everything to reach it. And if I fail..... oh.... 🙈🙈🙈

I hope that I will also have a great partner to reach it with me. Not everyone would leave all his bad habits to live a perfect life with me. But I believe there is a man who is brave enough to flow into a new life of adventures with me. 😊 Calling something a "comfort zone" which has nothing to do with comfort, even less with happiness is something I also had to go through, and it was hard. It was really hard.... and that's why I also can understand people who are struggling making the right decision. Many things are included. We overthink. We are scared.

When I am in a bad mood it makes me think that I should just try to forget about that house and everything it symbolizes for me. You know when you are in such a dark mood with dark thoughts. 🙄 And at those times you see everything is just black. I hate when those feelings happen. But okay, I am never so far in dark thoughts that I lose my hope and give up. I am willing to give: no matter how much patience, hard work, support, emotions, love, understanding and care. Sometimes all these things are unfortunately just not enough, and there is also nothing that could be enough for something so unreachable. But I believe and hope that it won't be the case here. I believe in this dream.

Well, I am really happy believing that something like that is truly possible for me. It' not about luxury or money, but it's a luxury for my heart and soul. And that is precious! And I hope I won't have to turn to getting 20 cats instead of all of this. 😸 😂 Even though I do like cats. This is the life I would love. I also think that only this could save me from stress, a crazy life, my panic attacks and other bad stuff. Because only when this really happens, I would be truly happy. Truly satisfied. When you are truly happy and you have a right partner by your side, you feel like you can do anything, reach the stars.⭐ Such a beautiful feeling. 😊

I hope that all of you are going to reach the unreachable. I am really happy to see how other people are really happy, satisfied and getting what they want for them in life. 💕🌺

P.S with my funny photo in my cat costume and Leviticus Fashions boots I also wanna show you that dream house I saw and love. ☺

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