Strong Enough?
by Sanela K. August 22, 2021
I hope this hot summer is finally over since we had a few days with lower temperatures and some rain. I am a rain (wo)man....... š§ except when I have to go outside, or I am outside, of course. š I think that's what a lack of social life turned me into. š I had 3 days off and I spent them in my apartment spending time with my old friends called panic attacks. š Those attacks had a lot of fun. š They got so wild I thought they drank some alcohol. š Well, at least someone had fun.
Anyhow those 3 days were still a bit better than today.. š I had, actually I am still having a bad day. I prefer bed and not bad, but it is what it is. If the shoe hits you, wear it like Cinderella. š It's the way I am dealing with it. But truly, all I wanna do is to sleep. š I just might get fired if I try it to get some sleep at work.
Sometimes I wish I lived in Japan. I heard they appreciate people who sleep at work because it means they worked hard. š š š š š Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong country and probably in the wrong century. š š š so "special" am I. For more than 2 years I have lived here and I still have a crappy social life and people are just running away from me. š But at least my neighbor's cat likes to cuddle with me. š Because I am such a difficult piece of art. Only a rare person can understand me. I am not really sure if that is something good or bad.....but it is my truth. š
I cannot help to think about what are we doing in our lives and are we actually as strong as we seem?. I can remember myself, 10 years ago, falling apart but still, well dressed, with make up in the club, not letting anyone see there is something wrong in my life. Until I drink some poision. š
I am not sure if I am still like that. Probably not. š¤Ø Since people can now notice my moods. Well, I guess that comes with age. š The older you get, things become a bits harder š such a beauty is life, right? š
And I was "running" to grow up. To be honest, I miss the time when my biggest problem was if my parents are gonna buy me that doll I really wanted. š Now I am seeing only creepy dolls while watching shows and as usual, I am dreaming of ghosts šššš I knew if I wasn't careful about what I was watching on video, it's gonna be like that but I kept pushing it. I fell into the trap of temptation. š
Last night I was like: "oh, why my TV still didn't turn off by itself after I didn't watch it for a longer time. Do I have a ghost here??????????" š š š Well, I didn't have ghost but for sure I had a crazy drunk neighbor singing on his balcony till midnight! š¤£š¤£š¤£ Oh, I enjoyed the show when our other super sensitive neigbor from the first floor got out to scream at him. ššš And he still didn't stop singing! He started to sing the songs with her name in them!!!! š¤£š¤£š¤£š¤£
I kinda like when someone is playing with her nerves. š Because she is really always over-reacting! I mean, okay, last night it was really loud and inappropriate, but she has been going crazy for much smaller things and threatening to call the police all the time. š Karma! š
Today, before I went to work, I used the opportunity, finally after 3 days I am actually not in my pajamas, to make some photos in my boots!!! š
I was planning actually to do much many more photos and videos these days but like I said, my "friends" had other plans. š So, it is what it is. š But at least I am still getting myself into good shape! Don't you dare NOT NOTICE it!!!!!
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